Yesterday felt like it served no point.  The updated software received from the supplier STILL didn't work after two weeks of fault fixing!  I feel like I'm treading water with my job.  Am I really achieving anything here or is it just a sticky plaster I'm applying?  If it wasn't such a comfort zone (easy travel, reasonable salary) I'd be looking for another job in the New Year.  But that would mean leaving two projects unfinished and that just doesn't sit comfortably.

To end a crappy day I went to log onto 20six with my ancient Dell Latitude (dont laugh) and the modem/cable was broken!  That's why my connection has been dropping out!  Agghhhh!!!!!  I hope I can buy a new one!  At least I have finally ordered broadband but I can't wait that long.

The general thoughts this week have all centered around "knowing when to quit"  Hhhhmmmm?!

I hope that positivity and inspiration will return to this site next week.

Whilst most people were out enjoying themselves or snuggled inside from the howling gales, I spent the WHOLE weekend on my knees, toiling and grafting, tiling my kitchen floor.  M&D came down to offer their labour and we had a right proper little working party – Ma on mixing, Pa on cutting and little ol’ me on laying.  We worked non stop both days until exhaustion rendered us unable to function. 

There was the odd crisis and one tile which just wouldn’t lay level which nearly broke me and Pa’s resolve but all in all it went pretty well.  No major catastrophes or cries of despair.  Of course we did a proper job, no botch-it and scarper.  Not this gang.  We laid underfloor heating and chipped away the lumps and bumps. We made our task more complex by laying them diagonally, but it’s pretty pucker, even if I say so myself.  Who'se a clever girl!  ME!!!!!  ME!!!!  I trust you are all suitably impressed.  Oh yes, I'm a girl who KNOWS how to enjoy herself (but don't look at the state of my hands).

But as always these things always take longer and require more effort than you anticipate.  And so we only achieved 75% of our ambitious target to lay the whole lot (9m).   That means the kitchen is still decanted into the living room and M&D will have to come down another day on their own to finish and return a sense of order before my girlfriend descends Friday! 

Tonight I shall be mainly grouting.

People still have so much capacity to disappoint me. 

Perhaps I am naïve, over optimistic or just fail to learn?  I acknowledge some of the problem is my own doing, giving people the benefit of the doubt too often.  The signs are often there, I just chose not to see them.  I’m am intelligent girl, it’s about time I stopped setting myself up for a fall. 

Occassionally I am greatly suprised and my faith is restored.  But the knocks are always harder.   

If you are unacquainted, may I introduce to you Calvin and Hobbes.  Don't be fooled, there's far more to them than just a boy and his toy tiger.

We are not alone.  Every second two new Blogs are created worldwide (gasp) according to "Imagine's Programme on the WWW last night, investigating the 21st century phenomenas that have emerged since the advent of this internet superhighway, such as blogging, on line music, home movies, wikipedia and so much more.

I resisted writing down all the various sites - the WWW should carry a Public Health Warning.  You can get seriously addicted.