I can give all the love and support I can, but I can't be there to hold his hand today.  He has to do this alone.

Today is the first step.  It's unlikely to be a big one, but a step none the less and hopefully the ball will start rolling.

I guess you know you love someone when you feel their pain.

And, yes, I will try and blog a bit more....

More was achieved today than could have been dreamt.  It is a victory.  A small but symbolic victory.  And yet I'm disappointed.  Of course I'm delighted for him, but I'm unhappy for me.  Events have suddenly moved on and sod's law, because such a shift wasnt anticipated, now I find myself unaccompanied for the wedding and the family do.  It is the right outcome, I just wish I didn't feel so let down inside.   Being a grown up is bloody tough sometimes.