More was achieved today than could have been dreamt.  It is a victory.  A small but symbolic victory.  And yet I'm disappointed.  Of course I'm delighted for him, but I'm unhappy for me.  Events have suddenly moved on and sod's law, because such a shift wasnt anticipated, now I find myself unaccompanied for the wedding and the family do.  It is the right outcome, I just wish I didn't feel so let down inside.   Being a grown up is bloody tough sometimes.